Just a thought

Well,
I find myself curiouly drwan back to my blog, or my shirt rants as you may call it and im curious as of why? why why why, right im sure everyone asks themselfs these questions at some point In life about something..
SO lately in my life, ive met a man or well i should say i left one because i fell for another. How well does this really work for anyone right? Well for me it was great, fun an exciting andi thought maybe just maybe i had found someone to get close to, to have fun and be goofy, but still be strong and sane and be able to comfort them but nope I give over a year of my life to making him happy and being there when he needed someone, did everything right this time andin the end he used me and said whatever i wanted to hear to get me t do things his way. Well you have to learn sometime right? He hurt me and destroyed a child in the process and still has no remorse for what he did. I suppose hes done it before and i just got the short end to have him next.. So now that i know what i want in life and where im going im hoping to find that someone whos there with me and ready to take all the steps to be happy and have a life worth living and enjoying, do something with my life you know?... my thought on this is, why why why?

But really why do men do this to women? is it really so hard to say what you mean and mean it? maybe youll find that someone who understands it and follows what they say.. wouldnt it be sooo much easier than saying a lie? why lie when you know its only going to cause problems in the furture? , why can men just say what they mean or tell us what path they want, aybe they can find someone going the dame path, no need to ruin others in your path..why destroy others that way...why??

.......

Sometimes in Life theres nothing that you can do to fix anything...Life moves in ways that is chooses.. you may make the first choice but in the end, life makes the finally choice. How so we as a people move forward when all you can think of is the momment.. Nothing is never enough for anyone...

Humans, life, everything we do leads to one goal.. We need money and sex. thats all we get outta life.. we use each other and then we die off. We leave our kids alone to stuggle with the pains we went to threw and eventually they'll die too. why id that? why do we have to go that way..

im just plain old sick and tired of all this crap..

my lifes a mess, i have nothing to look forward to when i wake up so theres no real point in ever going to bed..im constantly tired but never able to make it the last step for sleep.. i depend on a man to make my body happy but at the same time he makes my soul ache.. i let him use me for sex and this fake little snuggle he gives me and then he has me leave.. nothings ever real for him.. ..im used for nothing and gain nothing in return.. im not good enough for someone..for him or anyone..